seorang perempuan perawan~
Friday, July 8, 200503:21 p.m.
arti keperawanan.
adakah engkau ngerti?
apa itu harga diri.
apa itu keperawan dalam model baru.
apakah kite ngerti kepentingan-nya.
apa?
adakah ia satu trend?
adakah ia sesuatu yg kita harus menggembirakan?
apa?
kehilangan keperawanan kita tidak bermaksud apa-apa?
adakah masih lagi orang yg mampu mempertahan-kan perawan mereka?
apa?
bukankah kata-kata ku benar?
jumlah dari kita telah gagal.
gagal untuk mepertahankan.
tapi itu bukan masalah -nya!
aku bingung.
apa?
seks itu seronok?
apa?
seks itu akan membuat kamu populer?
aku tidak mengerti apa yg kamu semua memikirkan.
aku tidak mengerti kelakuan-kelakuan kamu semua?
apa?
kamu enggak fikir akibat-nya?
aku malu.
bukan karena kesalahan mu
tetapi karena kebodohan kamu.
apa?
kamu tahu ia salah.kan?
tapi kamu masih mengulangi-nya!
bodoh.bodoh.bodoh!
sampai tahap mana boleh perawan itu dipertahankan?
apakah nasib kamu jika kamu telah hilang perawan-mu?
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i'm back!
Monday, June 27, 200507:17 p.m.
okie2.
i have not really done my blogskin yet.
but soon.
i'm busy.
i love myself.
i really do.
do you guys do drugs?
i'm so high and addicted to coffee.
coffee make me do work!
coffee brings ME wings!
haha.
oh.
and i had a little chat with my form teacher.
and its funny that i open up to him.
i talk alot about ME.
about how i felt.
WOW.
i talk about myself to him.
what a no-no.
but i guess i felt better.
i think.
oh and have you ever thought that you think you had this greatest friend in the whole world.
and you suddenly found out that your bestfriend of yours just backstab you?
forget about it.
im happy u happy.
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
Live once , love Forever
Wednesday, April 27, 200507:04 p.m.
love is in the air.
ahahz.
crap.
QUOTES OF THE DAY
You can love a fool and let a fool loves you, but never let a fool, fool you.
The only obstacle to true love is death.
You are you
and what you are is beautiful
I am me
and i am not me without you
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
New!!!!!
Monday, April 25, 200509:21 p.m.
i change my blogskin.
and i don't even know why.
ahahz.
gawd.
i love myself.
muakz.muakz.
i love the people around me.
big hug everyone!?!?! haha
i feel
stupid, but good..
haha.
get it?
can't wait for thursday.
can't wait for my birthday.
in 4 days time?
and exam is nearer too!
haiz..
focus fiza.
focus.
get things right.
i realize i'm lucky to have people who cared for me in my
life.
haiz..
i wish i have more special people in my life.haha.
nolah.
i am grateful enough already.
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
you that all matters...
Monday, April 18, 200510:00 p.m.
okie.
i did my eng.
my maths.
half of my bio.
and physics.
see,
i can be good gurl you know.
i love myself.
i'm cute you know.
ahaz.
okie.
im starting to study.
and that's good lah.
and i'm always sleepy.
urgh.
temptations.
ahahz.
oh.
and i got thi friend.
who is freaking irritating.
and who thinks that we still got another year to study.
like "HELLO!!!"
WAKE UP LAH!!??
that person is just freaking irritating lah.
i know i don't talk too much now.
i mean i got nothing to say.
and i just don't feel like saying anything lah.
okielah.
whatever.
niwae.i miss HIM.
SO MUCH.
HAIZ..
-I LOVE U-
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
im so sleepy...ZzzZZzZZzzz
Saturday, April 16, 200506:38 p.m.
just got back from hosp.
evrythings okielah.
i'm so tired and sleepy.
gawd.
i really need to study sia.
serious.
struggling.
urgh.
haiz.
i miss him.
i miss aniq.
okie.i noe.
i've said it.
i still love him lah.
and i don't know why.
I JUST LOVE HIM OKIE??!!?
and im so lost lah.
okie maybe the visit that day made
me realise alot of things.
it did made a difference in me.
i still just can't help it.
i feel so helpless sia.
like i kept thinking of what his mom said and all.
it is just too unbearable!
get it.
and grew to love him even more.
not because i pity him.
because i want him.
and i love him.
i don't care what people say lah.
but i know i am fickle-minded.
and i talk too much.
i just can't get things straight.
you might not like me or comment about how i am.
but i just don't care.
i know it would be hurtful.
but it does'nt matter.
the choice is mine.
and nothing is gonna change my mind over him
i love him.
alot.
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
NEUTRAL.hah
Friday, April 15, 200505:09 p.m.
i woke up this morning
and got to know that my grandma's in hospital.
and till now!!!
we still do not noe was is she suffering of.
i felt so sorry.
and i cried.
yeap.
i cried.
and i don even know why.
even after i reach school.
a sat down, took out my book.
then i cried.
AGAIN.
had NAFA test just now.
and it suck.
i soooo did'nt feel well.
but i guess i did okielah.
i think i'm too emotional.
am i?
i cry too much lah.
every little thing i cry.
haha.okie watever.
i got this msg just now.
from him.R.
yeah.
not A.
but R.
haha.
he was saying.
cayang if i made u angry,
im sori.
i hope u forgive me lah.
i just do not know why i love u so much lah.
okielah.tc.
i just do not know wat to answer.
i do not want to give him hope lah.
later he think i love him.
i don't want.
i don't love him lah.
i just don't know lah.
you know what?
love is complicated.
you can easily say you love this person,
and by a second you don't.
love is unpredictable.
you never know that perosn like you.
or you will never know you would fall for your enemy.
you never knowand understand the word love.
it takes alot of vocabs to decribe love.
love to me, meant:
loyal.trust.care.sacrifice.
understand each other.
what do you think?
what is love?
well.
what do you think of sex?
haha.
okie mybe next time i'll post about sex.
haha.
okie.
i know that is disgusting Fiza.
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
YA ALLAH.
Thursday, April 14, 200508:43 p.m.
I FEEL TERRIBLE.
serious.
seeing people i love struggling in life.
i just can't face it.
i mean everybody's struggling lah.
but i'm just speechless.
i stop for a while and thought that i was lucky.
i seriously thought it through.
as i look around, i feel so sooryyy.
i just could'nt do anything.
i seriously felt like crying.
i was ssooo wasn't myself.
i understood.
life is hard.
i talk to his mother and stuff.
and she showed me a few documents.
i was shocked.
ya allah! i just wish i could help.
i juz wish i could do something.
at that very moment i felt so useless.
i felt miserable.
if she was my mother.
i would have protected her.
i would help her.
but i just soon i'll just get tired.
now i understood him.
i understood what they were going through.
i understood thier situation.
i beginning to treasure my life.
my family.my friends.the special people.
and i'm beginning to love him more.
he showed me courage and strength.
i realized i do not talk to him much.
i could'nt say anything.
i guess what he said was true.
i'm ego.
yes i am.
i over react too much.
i just talk to much about what he did but never look at
myself in the mirror.
i'm too serious.
i just could'nt take his jokes.
i need to chenge.for me.for him.for the people around me.
i love him.but i just leave it to faith.
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
im so tired but happy.
Wednesday, April 13, 200506:26 p.m.
i do not noe y im happy.but who cares.haha.
i love myself.dont u?
skool was okie. i love doing dnt lah! and im kinda beginning to hate art because of tat
SAADIAH lah.i hate her.
BIG TIME.
i'm finishing my last bit of my artefact!!! and im so happy.
at last..but have to start on folio already!!!and also
sutpid art...
and i hate english.mu english really suck..
gawd.i love him sia. and i ssoooooo cannot wait for my birthdae..
i love u darling...muax..haha
© fizz blows kisses to you <3*******KIZ KIZ*******
Tuesday, April 12, 200506:38 p.m.
i put this in lah.like taggy and stuff.but i noe nobody's like gonna tag it lah.but who cares.i don even care if u don read my blog.=p
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